Offering from Student Maris Evans

Maris spoke at our gathering for Alex in Ashland, Oregon on August 10th, 2014. Below is his transcription.

“For those of you who don’t know, I’m Maris, and I’m here today because I am among a large group of people who were touched by Alex Newport-Berra.

I met Alex as a frustrated kid, a product of both my mediocre academics and my lack of social ability, making me the ultimate loner. At first, tutoring was a burden. That didn’t last long.

Over time, Alex became something of a fascination of mine. He was always so calm, yet at the same time, so alive. It was an interesting comparison to me, relentlessly trying to twist my life against the hands of fate.

I remember, one night, after a late tutoring session, Alex walked me to the door. I think it’s safe to say he made a joke, and then he handed me a red envelope.

“Happy Birthday.” he said.

Yes, it was my birthday.

Inside the envelope was a two dollar bill.

It was then that I realized that I wasn’t just a burden to him. I wasn’t just a way to make ends meet. I mattered to him, because that was just who he was.

If Alex taught me anything it was that math isn’t just numbers and symbols and x’s and y’s, math is a living force that exists on its own. He made me love math.

But not just that.

As I began to excel at math, and realize that I could, I began to work harder at my other subjects.

And it was then that I realized that I was not an exception in the fact that I could socialize. I could interact with people just as well as anybody else if I set my mind to it, and for teaching me that, Alex, I cannot repay you.

He taught me that if you want something, you don’t have to clench and clench until you can clench no more to get it. There is a way to live and relax at the same time. He taught me all these things, without meaning to teach me anything but math.

At the beginning of this summer, he said to me, “Thank you for doing math over the summer. I realize it isn‘t the most fun thing.”

And I was like well, why are you thanking me, you’re using part of your summer to tutor me when you could be doing a myriad of more entertaining things.

“Math is fun with you.” I said.

And it is true.

When I learned of his death, part of me wanted to scream, part of me wanted to cry, and another part of me just wanted to just go to sleep. I couldn’t believe it. He was one of the most lively, animated people I knew. He was with me for the time I changed, grew, and learned who I was, and his death made me realize that he held a baseline for me. He was one of those people who doesn’t appear that much in your life, and in retrospect, doesn’t appear to have that big of an influence, but as I said, he held a base line, and when his death finally became real for me, it felt like I was coping with something bigger than the death of my math tutor. Because that was Alex. He made himself matter more than anyone in his place could.

I’ve thought of, if I knew that the last day I saw him, would be the last day I saw him, what I would say. And this pretty much sums it up.

“Thank you for being awesome.”
Godspeed, Alex. Friend, teacher, awesome math tutor.”

Notes to Alex

R _ _ E

Alexbiker

On May 9, 2009, Alex participated in the annual “Tour of the Unknown Coast”, and his beautiful account of the ride is posted below.

This last weekend my friend Matt and I drove down to Humboldt California for “The Tour of the Unknown Coast”. One hundred miles, around 10,000 feet of climbing, and billed as “California’s toughest century ride”. (Note that there are rides/races longer and/or tougher than this in California; double-centuries etc. and of course stages in the Tour of California).

The words “ride” and “race” start and finish with “r” and “e”, just a couple of letters in the middle different, sometimes those two letters make a huge difference, other times not so much. Last Saturday I did my first “race” in a couple years. There wasn’t really much separating this from a real race: numbers, a mass start, neutral rolling support (awesome!), it was timed, a King of the Mountains competition on the first climb to get the fire lit, prize booty for the winner. Not to mention the fact that Humboldt Locals refer to the ride as “The Tour”, and a couple of the local shops represent with their full racing squad of 10-12 riders.

The event has drawn famous names like Lance Armstrong and Tinker Juarez. The Director, Vic Armijo has put the race on since 2004 and the man knows how to do a superb job. Vic has combined his passion for riding and organizing with the green hilled coastal beauty of Northern California to produce one of the most inspiring, challenging, and exciting rides I have done; and many others at the ride agreed, most I talked to had done the ride at least a few times previous (Ashland bike shop owner of Cycle Sport, Alex Hayes, was on his lucky 13th edition). I know it takes something special to get me out of bed at 4:30 a.m. and travel to a 7 a.m. start time…

I’m writing this report the day after the ride, in hopes you will read the most direct account. Before it becomes a fish story, you know, the climbs get longer and steeper, the winds get stronger, the descents get crazier, yadda yadda yadda.

The ride starts and ends in the coastal town of Ferndale, Ca. Pre-race getting going with food, driving, getting my number, deciding exactly how much clothes to put on, wishing I could get my “morning movement” on its way through before we hit the road, check bike, then get to the start line and look as cool as possible with hairy legs as to assert some sort of presence without bringing too much attention to myself (yes, in most cases bike racing is generally narcissistic, masochistic, and fashion forward.)

I saw a few friends from the OBRA racing scene who I had not seen in a while and it was nice to have some familiar rear ends to watch during the first part of the race. The group rolled out, a big number of u, not sure yet exactly how many, perhaps around 100. The first thirty miles were pretty flat, taking us east at a good clip through the low coastal delta and through the scenic “Avenue of the Giants” that winds its way through massive redwoods, perhaps the true long endurance organisms. We all chatted, ate food, started to shed layers and get the legs warmed up. A few of us getting a feel for the rest of the pack. After some of the first little rollers the group was a bit smaller as riders started to fall behind the pace.

Through some sections on the tree lined Avenue of the Giants the road was rough and chunky, adding a bit of a Paris-Roubaix meets Smoky the Bear feel to the ride. The sounds of bikes, bodies, bones, bottles, and brains rattling for the next few miles. Though it did serve to loosen everyone up for the traditional “nature break” where we all quickly dismount for a pee. This is a fact of riding the bike for more than five hours at a time: you learn to eat, drink, pee, and change clothes while on the bike. My release required a bit more than most, my morning movement was on its normal schedule. I quickly dashed into the woods, knowing that the group was only stopping for mere seconds then would be back on the road at race pace, and travelling in the draft of the group saves energy. You have to do what you have to do, and I knew what I had to do would be worth it. A few minutes and a couple of rocky “toilet paper” uses later I was back on the road, a bit lighter though now and a few minutes behind the main group, I would have to work on my own to get back up to the group.

I made contact with the group at the base of the first major climb, Panther Gap, an eight mile smooth switchback slice of climbing ecstasy. The first rider over the top of the climb would be crowned “King of the Mountains”, regardless of their final finishing place (a sort of race within the race). Besides a sweaty tiara the winner would receive a set of new tires, some socks, and a free entry into next year’s edition. Think of it as an economic stimulus check for spending lactic acid.

Up climb the group started to separate based on determining factors of: number of miles ridden uphill that year, ability to detach muscle synapses from brain receptors, and power to weight ratio i.e. who has eaten the least amount of ice cream.

On the way up I was grateful for Devony, the smiling happy woman in the neutral support car who patiently took my jacket, gloves, arm warmers, the sun was makng a grand and beautiful appearance today. The weather was perfect for riding bikes, Vic must have some good connections with the gods!

About three miles in I was off the front of the group and making way to claim first to the summit of the climb. At one moment taking my focus from my labored breathing to get an amazing view of the hills below shrouded in early morning fog, blue sky above, my legs, body and mind were all happy to be together and wanted nothing else, interesting that it sometimes takes a certain level of challenge and pain to get to this.

At the top of the climb a couple volunteers handed me up some energy gel, which when riding one thinks of simply as “calories” which are good, needed, fuel. I was on my way down. I had opened up a gap somewhere aroun two or three minutes, which left me in a moment of decision:

A) Slow down and wait for a couple people to bridge up and join me so we can work together along the windy flat sections, using a paceline and drafting to lighten the workload or…

B) Power on alone and hope I make my breakaway stick for the next 60 miles to the finish, knowing that the group behind may be working well together and if they caught up to me have some fresh riders ready to make an attack.

I thought, then decided to ask my Grandpas, I figured if anyone could see how the race was unfolding it was them on their wings flying above. This may sound cliche and sentimental, I find inspiration drawn from my blood to be powerful and wise. And they have been with me on all my rides, training and past races so they know me pretty well.

And the image they put in my mind, and the look on their faces when I asked, were big smiles and they simply said, “Go! Why would you do anything else. Just go!” and so I did. The looks on their faces were calm and confident.

Descending like a bumble bee in a windstorm trying to rush back to the hive, twisting on steep, fast, bumpy road. Adrenalin my pollen, sweat and smile my honey. I was happy to be making this descent solo so I could choose my own line and not worry about others in front of me. Although I did more overcooking than a teenager behind the broiler at McDonalds. (overcooking is a cycling term referring to coming into a corner with too much speed, narrowly avoiding launching off the road)

I finished the descent, crossed a steel trussed single lane bridge, saw a white arrow markig in the road and started to plow my lonely furrow west toward the Unknown coast through the smooth rolling hills. After a few miles I was not quite sure I had taken the correct path, I didn’t see any more road markings, signs, etc. for a while. I told myself that “No, Vic is not going to spend two weeks marking every mile of road just to reassure my under-oxygenated brain”. I was reassured when the road started to parallel a beautiful river and I noticed my direction was going with the current, down stream, towards the ocean, westward ho!

One thing I know, it’s easier to be in pain when I am surrounded by beauty, and for some reason, and perhaps this is the masochistic and narcissistic side, it’s easier for me to feel beauty when I am in pain. Such was the case for the next miles as the rolling roads along the Matol River, through the small town of Petrolia with the locals out waving.

The next miles were alone. Along the river, over the river, above the river, green, blue and cool. I told myself I need to come back here in sometime and just explore. Beautiful country.

After some miles I looked back to see a lone rider approaching, he was around a minute behind me though I knew it would be another six or seven miles before he finally made contact. Again, more choices:

A) I ease my pace a bit knowing that if he had some energy he would catch up and we could work together, and be confident in my climbing to know that once we hit the wall I could attack and solo in to the finish

B) Though if he was on the edge and used all his energy trying to bridge up and had no energy me slowing down would be for naught and I would have lost some of my lead over the main group.

I saw the Beach! The eight mile stretch of beautiufl hell, strong north headwinds attempting to mush me backwards, I had to be persistent. A mile later the lone rider, Nelson, connected and we made our way north along the coast. Wind whipping our faces, as we ground our gears and teeth. Trading pulls and resting in each other’s draft. Nelson was making some strong pulls and I was happy he bridged up. The next seven miles the wind was relentless, the road a bit rough, and it all mkes you just a tad crazy, which is good, because the absurdity of it makes it all feel easier too. The neutral support car made a check-in and gave us some calories and fluid, yeah!

The last stretch we could see the Wall looming ahead, a long steep pitch. Check the link below for pictures. I could write tomes about the rest of the ride, but I’ll make it simple: We hit the bottom of the climb, Nelson and I separated and I opened a gap that I would hold until the finish. Steep, hot, sweaty, lots of pain, smiling, newspaper man named Jose out taking pictures leap-frogging me in his truck setting up at picturesque switchbacks. The last section called “Endless Hills” really were endless, though very bucolic and pretty, reminding me of roads through the hilly country side of Swtizerland with narrow roads and amazing views.

The last bone-jarring miles into Ferndale were fun and fast. I finished with a time near five hours and ten minutes. I enjoyed taking in the warmth and congratulations of people at the finish line.

The amount of time it took you to read this was shorter than the amount of time I spent grinding my way up the infamous “Wall” near the end of the ride, a 20% grade beast rising up then switchbacking from the Lost Coast Highway like a cobra preparing to strike…

Alex's Writing Notes to Alex

Bangin’ Buckwheat Date Bars

Buckwheat Date Bars (An Alex invention, recipe courtesy of Ryan Lamanna)

Ingredients:

Roasted buckwheat groats (2 cups)

Nutritional yeast (1/4 cup)

Cinnamon (2 tbsp)

Sea salt (1/2 tsp)

Medjool dates (not the deglet noor variety, and as many as you want)

Coconut oil (a lot)

Honey (a lot)

Blend the dry ingredients in a Vitamix or comparable muscle blender. Leave some buckwheat intact. Gives it a crunch. Pull apart the dates and throw the halves into a big pot with the coconut oil and honey. Melt down the coconut oil and honey and add the dry ingredients. You might have to play with the dry:wet ratio.

The sky is the limit with these things. There are so many different combinations of ingredients, it’d be make your head spin. Whole oats, oat flour, dried fruit, nuts, cocoa beans/nibs/powder, maca, beat root and curry powders, spirulina/chlorella, chia and flax seeds, molasses. The list goes on and on.

Recipes

Alex’s “Gratitude” available to the world!

In December of 2007, Alex published a compilation of his poetry entitled “Gratitude”. Beautiful paperback copies of the book are available for $15. Proceeds go toward creating more copies as well as the multiple foundations created to honor Alex’s place in the Oregon Youth and Athletic community.

To purchase your copy, please click the button below.

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Alex's Writing Contact Foundations Gratitude

The Day Unfolds

Alex

Alex at Crater Lake

The day unfolds with rays of sun,

rainbow spectrums fueling fun.

Oceans, mountains, rivers and stones,

a beautiful playground for my flesh and bones.

Let the wind’s strength carry a call,

the coming of winter, the passing of fall.

Let the sun shine on, I am its kin,

its blood warms my heart and all that’s within.

I thank the sun, before it turns to night,

that it gives me life to be a colorful light.

-Alex Newport-Berra

 

Alex's Writing Photos

Corvallis Gathering for Alex

At the Gathering to Honor Alex on August 9, 2014 in Corvallis, Alex’s friends and family were invited to write on a rock…a word or phrase that, to them, was Alex.

teacher
child
Shanti
Pure
joy
Transcendant
genuine
Grace
Gem (Alexandrite)
adventure
BLISS
soar high
Love
ALIVE
joy
constancy
breath
Deep Connection
capacity
STRENGTH & ENTHUSIASM
rock
love
HEALTH
!
Gratitude
live
water
Love the Earth
open
Respect!
Joy
120%
heart
bright star kilo 65
LUCKY
Embrace Life
Zander
observed love
Be Present
BIRD NESTS
Nynsha
Creative
Fun
MAGIC
HAPPY
inspiration
Love Warmth Space
passion
Fast Friend
WHYTE NYNSHA
Family
GROWTH
Amazing
Love
ZEST
Free
soaring
Surprise
present
Excel
RUN
warmth
Live
listen
The extra mile
Peace
An inspiration
universe
LOVE
humbling
Always Love Everything
ALIVE!!
Passion
smile
free
Beloved!!
Passion for LIFE!
BRIGHT
PEACE
FARTHER
breath
Uninhibited
Joy
Hope
rowdy
FREE
CENTERED
Respect
FLOW
Healing
Generosity of Spirit
Light
Peace & Joy
LOVE
Flexibility
smiles
Love of LIFE
Passion
spirit
Enjoy every moment
Lives Touched
illumination
Joy
Love
Radiant
Kind
Learn
Love
GRACE
Beautiful
Open yourself to life
SHARE
COHESION
Giving
Go to the light
Remembering
Pistachios
Tree Top
Pioneer
Sun
Love
Pu’uwai Aloha
Inspiring
up
SMILE
Love
notice the details
Hope
Yes
GRATITUDE
Inspire
Live
Lemon bars
one of a kind
wholeness
MAN of the mountain
Love you Alex
Your light shines on Alex
LIFE
the unknown
spiritual
Peace & Happiness
Grace
LIVE
Tree spirit
insightful
Wonder
SEA SAND
peace patience kindness
synchronicity
Joy
CONCERN FOR OTHERS
zest for life
Breathe
Oatmeal
Aloha
A Gift
Inspiration
Love
Energetic
Darkness = the understated silence that begets the stars
LIFE

Notes to Alex Photos